Yesterday afternoon I unrolled the yoga mats and did my first practice in the new apartment. I had to get up around 2:30 a.m. to confiscate the Boys’ ping pong ball. The air mattress may have another leak in it. I heard Charlie digging around on it a couple of times yesterday. We’ll all be…
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Alameda To Raleigh: Day Six
Y’all. I just drove from California to North Carolina. With two cats. And one very understanding and awesome friend. We got to the apartment a bit after 3:00 this afternoon, but not before driving through the heaviest rain I remember driving in. In the 13-1/2 years I’ve had Luna, I never once had the windshield…
Farewell To My Imaginary Big Brother
When I was little, I was obsessed with The Partridge Family. As an only child, I especially wanted to have lots of brothers and sisters and to be in a band. I would have given just about anything to have had Keith Partridge be my big brother. As I outgrew my Partridge Family obsession, it…
My Broken, Portland Punk-Loving, Heart
It’s been a rough year for my Portland Punk-loving heart. Over the weekend I learned that Fred Cole, the lead singer/guitarist for one of my all-time favorite bands, passed away from complications related to cancer. Fred, Toody, and Andrew were the fucking BEST. They loved their fans as much as we loved them. Fred always…
Strange Limbo
I am at the point in my planned relocation to North Carolina where I’m marking my remaining time in the San Francisco Bay Area in weeks, even days. Today I sent my property manager notification of my intended departure date (we had talked previously about my plan to move, so it will not be a…
Current Mantra
Only by taking a step, And then another, And then another toward The edge of My World I discover that My world isn’t flat after all ????????????
More Found Words
I write these words mostly in my head because they’d be too loaded to have brazenly displayed on my computer or on my calendar. And anyway our feelings are communicated, even though they’re unspoken. So I’ll just keep writing what I feel in my head to keep me safe and sane. (written some time in…
Short On Words, Long On Things To Say
I am at a complete loss tonight. Of all the things I could have heard this morning, I was not prepared to hear that Chris Cornell died. I’ve been in a tailspin since 5:15 this morning, with virtually no time or space to process this news and grieve. If you follow any of my socnets,…
Found Words
I was going through a box yesterday evening when I came across a stack of old journals, many had been started, then stopped. One in particular has a few entries beginning right after my mother’s death, as I began processing that and everything that came at me in the months that followed. I wasn’t consistent…
Half A Life
My temperament has been a little on the fragile side the last couple of weeks. And yesterday, as I looked at a calendar, I realized why. I have officially lived half of my life without my mother. From this day forward, I will have lived more of my life without my mom than with her….