16 December, 2006
Lesson
Often, I'll have conversations with people where they talk about having to learn to be with themselves. Most often these observations take place after they've had a break-up and they're transitioning from a partnership to life as a single person.
I seem to have the opposite problem: I'm having to learn how to be with other people. I don't mean this in the sense that I can't go out in public; I don't have a social phobia (though I do get uncomfortable if I'm in really large crowds). It's much more, I don't know, intimate, I suppose.
My recent bout with food poisoning (or stomach flu, possibly) is a perfect example. As I was riding the ferry into San Francisco on Thursday, I was telling my friend about my illness and how I foolishly dragged myself to the grocery store (twice!). I suddenly realized that I didn't need to do that. I have friends who offered to go to the store for me and I could should have thanked them and given them a list and some money. I know that I would not (and have not) hesitate to come to their aid, when they need it. I really need to learn to let go and let my friends in.
I promise I'll do better next time. (Though I hope next time is a really really long way off!)
Labels: friendship, navel gazing, sick
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