26 June, 2006
Oh well, whatever, never mind
Over the weekend there was a serious rupture in one of the online social groups I belong(ed) to. It got ugly, and it got ugly really quick. It involved three people that I consider my friends in the group and the hurtful, hateful words that flew around were very upsetting to me. Shortly after the administrator friend banned my other two friends, I posted my feelings to the group. I felt I needed a day or so to sort out how I could support *all* of my friends but not get involved in the unfolding drama that had nothing to do with me (other than my friends were fighting and I was upset). I no longer have access to my original post(s), but the gist of what I said is that I was upset by what had transpired and needed to sort all of it out in my heart. I also said that no one should take my silence as support for one person over another. In the interest of full-disclosure, I went to a photo that seemed to be a "meeting place" for one of my banned friends and posted the message there as well.
The banned friends were very supportive of my needing to step back from the situation. The administrator friend, however, banned me from the group. I got no message from her saying I was being banned or why (even though the why is rather self-evident, simple decorum would dictate a couple of sentences of explanation, or at the very least a "fuck off and die").
Then, just to drive the point home, the administrator friend deleted the testimonial I had written for her a couple of weeks ago and she withdrew the one she had written for me. Now, in spite of everything that had happened, I had absolutely NO intention of withdrawing the testimonial I had written for her because I actually meant every word I said. However, I'm left to infer that she didn't mean a word of what she said in her testimonial about me and that she must have just written it out of a sense of obligation. Which is a real bummer because I hate, hate, HATE insincerity and am sick to death of people misrepresenting their friendship toward me.
Given the way everything shook out over the last few days, I can't say I'm terribly surprised. But I am disappointed. Very disappointed.
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