08 February, 2006
Has this happened to you?
A joke gets played on you and you laugh it off, even though it kinda hurts inside. Then another joke and it seems just a little more mean than the previous one. But you brave a smile and say, "Heh heh, yeah you sure got me THAT time!"
But then you realize you're the butt of yet another joke, and this time it's so cruel and hits you so hard and in such a tender place that you can barely brave another smile, much less laugh it off. The hurt is so unbelievable and, once the tears pass through you like a fierce winter storm, there's just a big empty spot. Like something has been ripped out of you, something important, something precious. And you feel bad that there's this big hole in your heart/soul/spirit, yet it's just such a Big Empty, no one can see the pain because it's sort of numbed you.
And yet you don't know how to STOP being the butt of the joke...
~~ victoria on 9:31 PM ~~ 0 comments
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